Honesty, Openness, Communication and Why they are Bad for a Marriage

Da Missus and I have decided for a little flair we are going to try an open marriage and I am not sure where this is going to take us. We have had 3-ways before. We have shared our bed with another couple. We have even leaned toward swinging. Both of us this weekend spend considerable time looking up info on local swinging clubs in our area.

But we have come to a conclusion that we are going to have a true physically "open marriage". That means if the mood strikes elsewhere and there is opportunity, GO FOR IT!!!!!!

The problem I am having with all of this is that I barely have time enough to properly romance my wife. I damn sure don't have time (or ability or length or girth) to physically satisfy her. And now she has been given the green light to find more. Yeah, I am a little nervous. What if he / she / they are better than I? What if she realizes that I am not any good?

Now, the fun part of all this is that we always have the option of joining in with the outsiders, turning it into more of3-way than a "permitted affair". With my voyeuristic tendencies, I would probably do as much watching as joining in if da Missus is occupied.

Another problem I have is where to draw the line? We have set up certain rules with this. I am just terrified that what I think of as flirting she may see as something more. I do not want to do anything to make her think that she is less than anything other than my soul mate, life partner and wife. While the enjoyment of someone / something new is exciting, I will not ever, Ever, EVER jeopardize what I have for a quick shag.

And the final, and to me, the BIGGEST problem I have with this is when and how am I supposed to peruse anything else???? There is nothing here at work I want to go for, not to mention I am one who believes in the old adage, "Don't pee in you own water bowl". Web access here has all kinds of restrictions on it so I can't look online. I can't afford the bar scene. Da Missus monopolizes the computer when we are both awake, so I can't try the chat room from home. She seems to have all the advantages, and I might be left holding the bag, so to speak. And she is bi-sexual, so her chances are automatically higher better than mine.

NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!